Fake Spring

 It’s that time of year where you think the weathers changing for the better and you wake up the next day to snow haha it’s a wild thing seeing flowers blossom for springtime as the snow falls around them.

I have officially returned to work and school after a leave of absence and it’s great to be back at it. I have missed the connections and learning that comes with this work and I’m excited for the year ahead - tonight I cofacilitate my first every WRAP workshop for students from the University of Victoria, I’m super excited and appreciate all the guidance and support MHRP have offered me over the past year and a half.

Married life is just lovely, albeit the same as relationship life haha We are saving hard and making moves to buy our first home.

Recently I got access to my doctors notes and I was shocked to learn that I have 4 diagnoses on my file as opposed to 2. It’s taking some time to make peace with it, but at the end of the day it is what it is and it doesn’t change who I am. If anything it offers more introspection and room for growth.

This past few months, with all its turbulence, I’ve been relying heavily on my emergency meds. I’m going to make a conscious effort to try and get off them as I’m sleeping so much and feeling pretty spacey on the regular. They’ve helped a lot in my time of need, but it’s time to get back to more manageable coping strategies that don’t impact my day to day life so forcefully.

Positive Relations Media is starting to come into its own and we have a pretty sweet project coming up which we are just thrilled to be a part of. Keep your eyes peeled 👀 

I actually don’t think I have that much to share this month. . Wee Millie has been told for the second time in a year that she needs a stricter diet and more exercise, just a few munchies away from obese says the vet!! Poor wee girl. I can only think that living on the streets she didn’t have much of a consistent meal intake and now she’s getting two steady fillings a day. She’s been put on special metabolism foods and getting dragged out for walks rain or shine, much to her dismay.

I’m off to Nanaimo on the weekend to support our annual naked bungee fundraiser, although I’m too scared to jump, I’ll be helping with hot dogs and coordination.

Well, that’s the rundown from me. 

Better get the day started!

Love and hugs xo 

New Year, Same Me, Extra Goals

I often roll into the new year with lofty goals and an attempt at a second coming haha, not this year.

Last year weighed heavy. It was my first full year experiencing work and student life in the Mental Health field, whilst navigating my own illness and all that comes with it.

I think I done well, but I am moving into this year holding boundaries and curiosities at their highest.

This isn't the year for me to make a big list of the things I wish to accomplish in the next 12 months, instead, its me breaking down my previous lists in an attempt to work smarter and create bigger, bolder dreams for myself.

I left 2021 a bit depleted. The weight of the year coupled with health challenges and a family loss, which was quickly moved past to focus on our wedding - oh yeah, I'm a Mrs. now!

The wedding was beautiful, magical, all we could have hoped for. And I got to see our parents for the first time in two years thanks to Covid.

On reflection it was all a bit of whirlwind and the past couple of weeks I've been faced with the grief that I unwillingly pushed to the side. 

This next two weeks is solid me time, to bring myself back to ground and focus on what's most important right now.

Our brand spanking new Positive Relations Media Wellness Hub is now live. Sharing media by our wellness contributors from all over the world. As a collective we know that wellness looks different on everyone, and with that in mind we offer tools for movement, expression, relaxation, creativity, research, perspective and much much more to come.

With Covid (hopefully) taking more of a back seat over the next 12 months, we hope to move into in person live events both on and offline, allowing our resources to be accessible for everyone. 

I'm proud at how far we have come in the past year, from a delusional dream to a substantial reality. Big thanks to the entire team for helping bring my vision to life!!

Well, brief update from me. But that's about it in my world.

Focus, vision, passion & purpose.

Much love always xo

 

Remember remember, how is it November?

Like, how is it November already?

I’ve been trapped in a whirlwind yet again. Lots of work, school work, business development, more work. . 

I wrote last time that I started seeing some effects of sharing my traumas with the UBC students. It would appear looking at my charts that I’ve been having a time since. It’s began taking on physical symptoms and I’ve started dissociating again. Oh man.

Last time this happened was 2019 and I had started some trauma therapy that got swiftly closed down by my psychiatrist. So it looks like another leave of absence from work to get back on my feet.

It’s kinda gives me the opportunity to get school work back on track, I’ve been running at least 3 days behind with every assignment.

I’ll take a moment to say I’m grateful for the crisp chill in the air and the multicoloured leaves floating around the sky. 

I’m grateful that I’m marrying my best friend in 53 days.

I know I’ve got this. I took on too much. But it’s my responsibility, to my wellness, to recognize the signs of stress endured relapse and take the control back.

Whooooah it gets better.

xo